Hope you guys had a lovely weekend, I've just come back from a chilled and sunny mini break in Porto, more on that later :) I've been in two minds whether to write or publish this post and it's been sitting in my drafts for a few days. Even though I've shared many parts of my life with you guys I feel nervous sharing this post as it still feels raw. So where do I start? The last few weeks have been really hard mentally and emotionally and it feels surreal to say this but last week I quit my job.
It's always been my goal and dream to leave my full time office job of almost 4 years to pursue my wedding videography business. It's something I've been seriously contemplating but never put a time frame on it. It wasn't until certain unfortunate events that unfolded at work, I realised my heart wasn't in that job and it wasn't fair to my employer or myself to stay. I didn't want to be in an environment where people do not have my best interest at heart or value me.
The time leading up to this decision, I experienced stress and anxiety. I feel like those words get thrown around too often but having experienced those very real emotions, it was tough. I'm not a stressed or anxious person and I was tired with all the emotions I was feeling. Deep down I knew I should never give up on myself, know my self worth and believe in myself. I realised being in that role didn't make me happy and wasn't good for my self confidence, happiness and well being so I made the decision to leave.
We're in control of our happiness and we have a choice of the environment and people we surround ourselves with. Of course it's not so simple to just up and leave a job but sometimes opportunities presents itself in strange ways. I saw this as a chance to close one chapter and start another, this is the time for me to pursue my videography work full time and I should run with it.
Who knows what the future will hold for me, am I scared? Yes, but I know I'm passionate about my creative work. As my friend Lucy said I've laid good foundations for my business so I look forward to the opportunities that will hopefully come my way :) I'm excited for a new found freedom, to finally be my own boss and fully throw myself into things I care about and I'm good at. It would mean so much if you wanted to show my videography business some love by liking my Facebook page :)
Yes things have been a bit crappy lately but that's life right? It throws us curve balls to make us stronger. I'm lucky I have amazing friends and family who truly believe in me and it has meant so much having their support - I honestly don't know how I could of got through all of this without them. I know this post has been long winded and not my usual happy and upbeat style but I hope it has inspired you to believe in yourself no matter what :) We can do anything if we set our hearts and minds to it.
"It's ok to struggle, just don't give up on yourself."
Thank you so much for reading.